I guess it's pointless to think about what and where you could be, because unless you have a lot of money, it's impossible to change where you are and what you are doing. I try to change the perspective a little. Instead of : I could be a millionaire, sipping wine on my yacht in Monaco, I change it to: I will be a millionaire, sipping wine on my yacht in Monaco.
It doesn't work, of course, and it never will. But thinking like this at least gets me motivated enough to get up and feed the dog. Then I make every effort to fill my day, which is why I have just got back home - it's 0211 now and I haven't been in that long.
Then there is the other problem of Taiwan. Taiwan is like quicksand. You can sit there and be perfectly OK, but any attempt to move seems to swallow you even more. I think it is too easy to be comfortable here and not worry about too much. The trouble is, as you get older your options run out and you get left thinking things like: Do you ever think of other places and things you could be doing?
I have a plan anyway, and I'll try to stick to it. For once.