Thank you, but that's the thing. I'm not straight. But I look straight and I couldn't get myself to come out to them because well my dad has a heart problem, and many people have told me to do it, be honest but I don't think I'd want to hurt him like that and I don't think everyone understands where I'm coming from but he is not the type who can tolerate or accept that version of me. He is the typical Taiwanese dad.
Hope this information doesn't creep you out! Thank you for understanding, though.
Why would it creap me out?
My ex-brother-in-law came out to me first, because I was the "softest" family member--he didn't risk face-loss by telling me--and it still took him YEARS to do that. He doesn't "look" gay either, but if you spend more than ten minutes around him, it's pretty obvious that he's at least not arrow straight. But he's the only son in the family and has the obligation of the family name--you know the drill. His lesbian sister became a monk.
So I can, honestly, understand something of how hard this must be for you. My personal opinion is that it's better to come out to your family. A secret like this ends up being a wall between you and the people you love. It may be hard for them to deal with, but you may find that they eventually respect you for being strong enough to be who you are--and for respecting them enough to be honest with them and let them deal with who THEY are.
*My brother-in-law wasn't my husband's brother--he was his cousin--his father's sister's son. So, technically outside the family, but the relationship, at least in my ex's family, is still called brother.